[15 Oct 2004|04:32pm] Contrary to popular belief... I am NOT dead. Well, maybe I am. But I am still using livejournal. But I DID change my screenname... _____horrorshow . Thank you. infect.

[30 Sep 2004|09:01pm] [ mood | frustrated ] [ music | Hocico - Born To Be Hated ] I am living proof that a human being does not function well when living off of a 3-hour nightly sleep pattern. I can't sleep, but I want to. I know I'm tired but my brain won't shut off and allow me to actually take a break. I think every person that talked to me today had to wait about forty-five minutes for me to answer them. And those answers were basically just incoherent rambles. I got my Donnie Darko shirt in the mail today. Shweeeeee. My tummy hurts. Wow. My room is really messy. 19 patients| infect.

[28 Sep 2004|08:31am] [ mood | blank ] [ music | London After Midnight - The Bondage Song ] Oh, yeah...I'm back. Read about my weekend if you're that bored. infect.

[24 Sep 2004|06:44am] [ mood | indifferent ] [ music | The Nerve Agents - Portland ] Happy belated Equinox. I won't be here this weekend. Going camping (I had no say in whether I could go or not). My family + Me + Paisley + Strange forest... :/ Heheheh... 7 patients| infect.

[23 Sep 2004|07:15am] [ mood | irritated ] [ music | Mozart - Lacrimosa ] It's. Too. Bright. That is all. infect.

[20 Sep 2004|04:45pm] [ mood | melancholy ] [ music | The Murderdolls - Dressed To Depress ] Guess I need to save up for this now. It's getting to the point where I'm depressed when new DVDs are released because I can't even afford them. Bowie has been retrieving things from under the refrigerator. So far he found me some lint, a pink ball from the plastic balloons of an old birthday cake decoration, and a dime. All I need is about $19.90 more. Oh, yeah. And now both my parents want to disown me because of my infatuation with sharpie pens on human skin (among other things, I suppose). 10 patients| infect.

[17 Sep 2004|07:40am] [ mood | sleepy ] [ music | The Cure - Boys Don't Cry ] Wow. I really don't like to be woken up in the morning...I mean by people. I have an alarm clock for a reason. I don't mind the alarm clock going off, because it's an inanimate object who has never said nor done anything to hurt me, but when people do it, it just gets on my nerves. I just discovered yesterday that I have two different identities in my Italian class. The students there recognize me with my glasses, but when they see me with my contacts they think I'm someone else. And it's funny when they try to "hit on me" so to speak because I tell them I'm fifteen years when they're about thirty...so they slowly back away after talking to me. Yesterday Nathan (who is actually pretty nice) and I were trying to save the bunnies on campus after class (my class is at LBCC, where there are literally bunnies everywhere you go, and the bunny population grows every week because of the way they reproduce). I fear for them, they're gonna get stepped on by careless students some day. Bleh...school starts in an hour and a half. 13 patients| infect.

[14 Sep 2004|07:40am] [ mood | cranky ] [ music | Sisters of Mercy - 1959 ] Why do I always feel like this in the morning? Why do I always feel so sorry for myself? ...and who the hell am I asking this to? 6 patients| infect.

Kitty Vampires. [12 Sep 2004|06:23am] [ mood | blah ] [ music | Jack Off Jill - Lollirot ] Sun's not up yet. I left my sketchbook in the kitchen last night and I'm just gonna sit here, on my bed, hugging it and hoping that my mom didn't flip through the pages while it was in there. I feel a little shaky and I'm just sorta swaying back and forth with a blankie over my head. I took some Aleve for my back ache and it's not working. I'm gonna look for some aspirin or something. Bowie attacked my leg and this strange reddish fluid with an iron-metallic taste began spewing out of the holes that were on my flesh :) And it wasn't strawberry jelly. 13 patients| infect.

[10 Sep 2004|04:46pm] [ mood | lethargic ] [ music | The Crüxshadows - Deception ] Exhausting. I opened the door to my house. Stepped inside. Hardly made it to the carpet in the living room. And just. Collapsed. Then I got up and went to the couch to sleep. Ha. Like I'm actually gonna do stuff with PEOPLE when I can't even manage to walk? Haha. Like I even have TANGIBLE people who wanna do stuff with me. And why is it I am the only person who even makes an attempt to remember other peoples' names? It makes me feel so invisible when I'm forgotten. I suppose invisibility can be an advantage. No? 14 patients| infect.

[08 Sep 2004|03:13pm] [ mood | sick ] [ music | Sisters of Mercy - Lucretia My Reflection ] Uh...today wasn't so bad. I found out that a lot of the people I didn't like last year in my accelerated classes didn't pass them anyway, so most of them aren't in my classes anymore. So there are a lot of new people. And my teachers have interesting names. Who am I kidding? Today was shit. Some wigger kid asked me and Sydney if we'd ever consider fucking him after school when we were at the bus stop. I said I wasn't into guys...it's a lie but it was effective in getting out of the situation. Then I think he called me a dyke or some shit like that. Ass. As for the actual school portion of my day, let's just say my notebook is now filled a few more curse words and angst-based sketches than it started out with. On top of that, my voice sounded like a long-term smoker and I wanted to throw up as soon as I stepped on the campus grounds. It's not even the time of year when people get sick. Oh yeah, and my mom is convinced that I'm in a cult. She brought it up as if she felt like I should have more on my mind. She's serious too. I think I'm going to get some Green Burrito for dinner with Rosanna tonight. Wee. I'll probably forget about everything I just wrote about within an hour. (I apologize for the consistent text-cursing in this entry but I'm just a little bit pissed right now, enough so not to care about censoring my thoughts). 14 patients| infect.

[08 Sep 2004|06:33am] [ mood | cranky ] [ music | Jack Off Jill - Girlscout ] Just re-did my layout. School starts for the first time this semester in about an hour. ...bleh. -_- 2 patients| infect.

[06 Sep 2004|08:54pm] [ mood | tired ] [ music | Nightwish - The Phantom of the Opera ] Meh...today was...interesting. I went shopping with my mom and it ended in a bunch of incoherent screams. No need to explain why. CD players can be quite convenient though. I finally went back to Fingerprints (independent record store downtown). I like the people that work there. Then some guy offered me a jacket when I walked out of the store for some reason. First of all, I was already wearing a jacket at the time. Second, it's about 300 degrees outside...why the hell are you offering strange people jackets? My brother and his girlfriend are over for dinner. She did touch-ups on my hair (she wanted to, she's practicing for school) so it's now black and blonde roots are no more. Yay. Paisley, last time you came here I think you left an apple in my bathroom garbage can. Gnats now infest my household because of this. Several of them just flew on my computer screen. No more apples for you. 7 patients| infect.

Earstabbed. [05 Sep 2004|01:24pm] [ mood | nauseated ] [ music | Bauhaus - Hollow Hills ] I got my ears pierced. Well, I guess that's about it. ( I'm really abusing my webcam... ) My hair looks like crap (yes, those are my roots exposed in the pictures), my internet is having problems, my throat is sore, and I feel like I'm gonna vomit any time now. 16 patients| infect.

[04 Sep 2004|12:12am] [ mood | morose ] [ music | Dimmu Borgir - Perfection or Vanity ] As a human race, we are a truly selfish race. We all say we're out to improve life for future generations, when the truth is...we only care about that small time we have until our own deaths. We contribute nothing to our planet, besides pollution, and we take everything remotely organic and manufacture it into something impure. We actually kill innocent people, just because we don't agree with them. We're all just lazy fucktards who are ready to blow people we don't understand, or even know up into ashes before making an effort to see things the way they see them. We all want to be seen as purging little sticks yet we fill ourselves with food and we don't seem to comprehend that food contributes a lot when it comes to gaining wait. Every time we say the world is "beautiful," it sounds like it's nothing but a cheap attempt to feel a five-second state of oblivion and ignore the violent deterioration of the world around us. And the worst part about it, is that this species has finished its evolutionary process. We are never going to get any better than we are now. Virtually, humans are already dead. A breathing, walking breed of extinction with nothing but breathing, walking zombies. Damn. She went emo again. 12 patients| infect.

[30 Aug 2004|11:09pm] [ mood | apathetic ] [ music | HIM - The Funeral Of Hearts ] Got bored. Made new shirt & skirt. Alice's Adventures in Wonderland illustrations + Mix Visual-Kei + Dani's poor sewing skills. ( Go see... ) The end. Not really... New layout on OTS.com. The real end. 23 patients| infect.

[28 Aug 2004|09:21am] [ mood | groggy ] [ music | Rob Zombie - Superbeast ] Today I'm having massive mood swings, I can actually sense them. I'm okay now, no one's awake yet. A few minutes ago I started talking to grapes, not the plump green ones, no. The reject deformed bruised ones. Those are the ones worth talking to. We have a lot in common, me and the misfit grapes. They don't talk back though, I think they're too shy :D ( Survey Time ) Hey, I'm not making you read it. 14 patients| infect.

[25 Aug 2004|10:01am] [ mood | indifferent ] [ music | Beethoven - Sonata ] Let's see... Paisley woke me up at 7:00 this morning. I had about two hours of sleep. We went to school (for registration) and found people we hadn't seen all summer. My ID photo makes me look like a leprechaun. I have two unscheduled periods, because one makes up for my class at LBCC and they're both in the morning so I can sleep in everyday. Woot. Today is Homura Day...so I have to say "Son Goku" after every sentence. I mean when I talk, not when I type. It won't last for more than a few minutes. Nobody knows what the hell I'm talking about. We're gonna go make shirts, I think. [EDIT]This is Paisley, fact is, Dani doesn't have much to write about. Her life is kinda bland. Like...a popsicle without...ice? That kind of bland. But when I think bland, I think salt, *licks Dani* Nope, no salt OR ice...o__o. I guess I'll just skitter and [be?] smitten. [/EDIT] Paisley always makes me feel better, even though we both know my life sucks ass. :D 5 patients| infect.

[19 Aug 2004|11:56pm] [ mood | amused ] [ music | Marilyn Manson - Disposable Teens ] Well, a lot has happened in the past few days you might say. My Italian course started and I have a new cat. My brother and his girlfriend rent an apartment and the owner of the property doesn't really allow pets. They bought a cat a few months ago and the owner found out about it and said he would let them keep it but they had to pay extra for rent. They decided not to keep the cat because they couldn't afford the extra monthly cost. So where is the cat now? Well, he's gonna be staying with us from now on. His name is Bowie (they named him after David Bowie, of course). He's still a kitten and spazzes out because of even the slightest movement. I think he's gonna like it here. ( Meet Bowie... ) 13 patients| infect.

[15 Aug 2004|03:58pm] I was just sitting there on my couch flipping through the channels on the TV a few days ago and out of nowhere my dad decides he wants me to bake a cake for his birthday. So here I am today, cracking egg shells (eew...) and mixing all the ingredients together. I also added a secret ingredient called love (love meaning one big wad of saliva. Heheheh.) It's actually pretty fun, but I don't really want to eat any of it. 10 patients| infect.

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